7:08 -- It occurs to you that there is no such thing as absinthe that makes you die in your sleep and that you must already be under the spell of something else in the real world (maybe a type of vodka that makes you die in your sleep?)
7:09 -- You ask the girl at the bar if she saw anyone buying you a vodka, or maybe a bourbon, bourbon was possible, and she said she had, though in the reality you were referring to she was really your friend from community college, but then he was distracted by a girl named Lux and put all his money into her pants and then they went into one of those little rooms where the doors are kind of a secret.
7:12 -- After coming back from the bathroom where you have spent a few minutes trying to burn your hands under hot water in the hope that it would wake you up, you ask the girl if getting more drunk, maybe to the point of passing out would get you out of this. Or a nice punch to the chops? This isn't opposites world she said. Just go for a walk and maybe you'll find something. Your hands still hurt from the water.
* * *
8:45 -- You're telling a girl with white hair about how they had found you. It would be tomorrow, late afternoon they would find you tied up to a bar heater with an extension cord. The heater would be turned up high slow cooking your hands which were shoved between the gaps. Your pants off, your shirt still done up. He sodomised you for hours and broke some of your teeth from the repeated pushing of your head into the hot metal. When they found you, your face would still be red from it. The girl with the white hair whose teeth were crooked as an old fence asks you why you would let this happen. You tell her that it was already happening and you have only just figured this all out. So if she wants to have sex with you right then that might help because what you'd really be feeling would be the penetration of the offender and maybe if they did it hard enough you would wake up. She flicks her hair revealing how much of a bad job she's done of cutting it herself and she tells you to buy her another drink and you do.
* * *
9:09 -- You're over by the band, talking to the drummer from high school whose later successes in life you are so envious of. He tells you that you were wrong about how you were going to die and you say that you knew it after sex with that girl because there was nothing unpleasant about it, until her vagina turned into a rotary phone and you had to dial emergency services to free yourself from its grasp.
9:10 -- The drummer takes you to the back room where the rest of the band is winding down. You ask them if there are any more parties after this, and they all say no that they have to get up early to have suicide doors installed on their tour bus which is really just a Willys pick-up with no tray. You wonder at this point if you go to sleep will you actually be dead, but you don't seem to able to stop yourself. You miss your flight home and end up walking.
9:10 -- The drummer takes you to the back room where the rest of the band is winding down. You ask them if there are any more parties after this, and they all say no that they have to get up early to have suicide doors installed on their tour bus which is really just a Willys pick-up with no tray. You wonder at this point if you go to sleep will you actually be dead, but you don't seem to able to stop yourself. You miss your flight home and end up walking.
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7am -- You wake up at home, except it's the apartment you moved out of six months ago. You had a weird dream about being sexually abused as a child by your friend's grandmother except when you go to tell everyone no one believes you and your friend's mother ties you up in the basement and whips your face with a cane for not keeping it a secret like you'd been told to. You tell this story to your fiance over breakfast and she asks you if the girl you had sex with in the club last night meant anything. You told her it meant you weren't going to die, and that those flowers she'd stuck in a vase were beginning to smell like shit. She smiled and kissed you goodbye as she left for work.
7:04 -- You remember another dream about what you were doing between 7:13 and 8:44 the night before. You were stinging yourself with bees in the parking lot until you saw the flashing of police car lights and you quickly stuffed them back into a matchbox and you balance on top of a car's front tire. The policeman was shining a light in your face and then out of nowhere a bee flies out of the box and stings you in the back of neck. He's asking you questions and all of a sudden you can't breathe and you fall to the ground and everything is going dark around the edges. You pass out face down in your bowl of cereal and the policeman is standing above you blinking his flashlight off the top of your head.
7:45 -- They finally kick down the door to find you slumped over on the toilet with a coked out William Guest injecting heroin between your toes.
7:04 -- You remember another dream about what you were doing between 7:13 and 8:44 the night before. You were stinging yourself with bees in the parking lot until you saw the flashing of police car lights and you quickly stuffed them back into a matchbox and you balance on top of a car's front tire. The policeman was shining a light in your face and then out of nowhere a bee flies out of the box and stings you in the back of neck. He's asking you questions and all of a sudden you can't breathe and you fall to the ground and everything is going dark around the edges. You pass out face down in your bowl of cereal and the policeman is standing above you blinking his flashlight off the top of your head.
7:45 -- They finally kick down the door to find you slumped over on the toilet with a coked out William Guest injecting heroin between your toes.
